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On this page I try to give an answer to a few "why"s.
"What"s, "how"s and "where"s are usually relatively easy to answer - this is substantiated in their nature. The "why"s need to go a little bit deeper. Therefore I permit myself consciously a little bit philosophy.
Computer science is very important for me since I was 12. Even before I was interested in different fields of science. But computer sience especially software development was and is my favorite.
To invent by itself stands in the foreground for me. Writing programs means to be creative all the time. You divide, restructure and solve problems. You put one tile to another until it forms a big integral whole. You do that with an inexpressibly easiness - without hammering, sawing, screwing, soldering - you work just with your head. It is fascinating to see how you can move stupid machines to do complex and apparently intelligent things.
Another aspect is that information and the technoligy in conjunction with information has one of the most farreaching influences on our life and on our society - science, technology, economy or our everyday life.
It is exciting to live in a time where our environment changes with breathtaking speed. How science, the progress caused by information technology and information technology itself are mutually exponentiated.
But we should not forget that humans do never change faster. They conform slowly. We have to pay more attention to that.
I have decided to work as freelancer because I hope to have more space for my own decisions relating to my work.
I plan to earn a part of my living as freelancer and the other with my own developments (shareware).
I like this form of software distribution. I think that is extremely comfortable to test software before buying.
The internet is a cheap and fast infrastructure and very well suited for software distribution. It was never so easy to sell a product.
The origin of this website was more of private nature. I did want to have a domain of my own for my screen saver. I planned to publish a few more of my programs and documents - the internet is patient (I hope so!). Now a commercial aspect and the aspect of self-advetising was added.
There are a few points which were and are important for the design of this site :
The strange name is a combination of "Mephisto" and "Zarathustra".
Mephisto comes from Goethes Faust. The extraordinary personification of the devil (Mephisto) is very fascinating ("Part of that power which would the evil ever do, and ever does the good" from Faust I).
Faust is a searching schoolar. He doesn't fear to start an argument with all kinds of elements (ghost etc.) and also with the devil himself to find answers to the questions of questions ("Where do we come from?", "Where do we go to?")
On his quest for answers he takes the devil as his schoolmaster and the devil has some uncommon peculiarities. Which devil is frustrated and depressed because he fights a hopeless fight against the good? Hopeless because this fight itself causes the neverending cycle of creation and destruction and with that life respectively the good.
The broken polarity of good and evil, right and wrong. The relativity of humans points of view in relation to almost everything and of course the power of thoughts and the language of Goethes Faust form my special relation to this book.
The second part of the name is form Nietzsche's "Thus Spoke Zarathustra".
Zarathustra is a recluse. He tries to get to the bottom of almost everthing what the society accepts to be given. He searchs and finds new wisdom. He has the vision of a new kind of human beeing, who is able to leave all ballast behind and exists in his most veritable nature. This human makes every decision with his own will power, free from foreign influence. He lives his nature. With innumerable parables Zarathustra dissects the society, sanctimonious morale and ethics.
I like to try to get to the bottom of things. Change cannot be accomplished by accepting everything old or given. However there cannot be evolution if everthing will be destroyed and build new again. The compromise is the challenge.
There are another two reasons for the name...
The logo should be made of the two letters "M" and "Z". This kind of letter-symbols were used earlier (not only earlier ;) as talisman, protection spell or magical sign for power. Although I am a big, big sceptic I can't deny a certain fascination for mystical things.
As said before, the symbol is made of the two letters "M" and "Z" but with a small amount of phantasy you can put every letter of "Mephzara" into the logo.
The circle signifies the whole, the world, the universe. The "Z" looks in my eyes like a flash. The energy of the flash is the polarizing force (spirit), which divides the world. The world itself accrues out of perception, perceptions is based on differentiation - that means cutting the whole. So the flash's dividing force creates the world with sizzling sharpness out of undifferentiated subconscious and carries it to consciousness...
...well, but maybe it is enough that I like the logo and I think it fits my personality... ;)
...you should not always take the intellectual prattle all-too serious... ;)
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